i'll burn your name into my throat
|I've always struggled at the root of the problem.
Has it been absence or my constant lack of defense?
I've never spent a lot on finding a remedy.
I guess I figured that it hurt for a reason.
I guess that's why I've always turned to writing it down.
Not just in stories, but the letters in between.
And I guess that's why it haunts the pages of everything
- to self-examine.
I think the thing is that I shut off
from everything. From friends and family and my
own ambitions. From having fun. I just shut off from everything.
Self-defeating? Yeah, probably. But I don't know that I had
total control over it. And I'm not sure it even matters why.
Sometimes things happen and you can't do anything.
Plus, I'm the only one who deals with it anyway.
So if everyone could do me a favor and just put
their fingers down I'd— and keep your mouths— Sorry.
I know I seem angry. I'm not, I... I promise.
I just know I did this to me. And I will deal with it
accordingly. And I don't need opinions from those
never a part of it. Don't need them pointing out
my problems, they're mine. Don't need reminders;
I know better than anyone.
And yeah, I know, I should
be finding another way. I know that I should be out
seeking a substitute. But just forgetting never really
made sense to me. So I haven't been.
Do I feel embarrassed about it?
I think you know the answer to that.
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